and she made you better.

This is heavy. This is real. I can't shake this, or you. I'm turning songs into a reality i'll never face. I want to hold someone's eyes. to unglue them from the floor, "hold your head high, heavy heart." i want summer through winter. i want crying in your lap and laughing at all your clever lines. there are so many of me waiting in the corners of the world. even with spotlights, they'll all find a way to look us over. my vices can take the edge off, but im shaking for you (for anyone). i'll sit in the dark with you and wait. expectations versus reality.

in desperate need of a real smile. i want to see you laugh deep from your core. i want you to look straight through me. tell me you can't smile because you know.

but the thickness of silence.