as you cry

everything in me says you're no good. but please, just don't go. terrified what the world is going to turn into. lately breathing has become more like an option, and less of a necessity. you make the little sanity i have left go up in flames. honey flavored and molten. want to tell you all the ways i'd keep you here. (but to you - you took the little sanity i have left and brought me home. its just easier to go back to this, to him, now that you've chosen to leave me out in the rain. that doesn't mean i want this. im just sorry ahead of time. the honest truth is that i really am trying to escape from you. back to the valentines. so its okay. write me off, but please just don't hate me.)

"And she combed your hair, and she kissed your teeth
And she made you better than you'd been before
She told you bad things you wished you could change in the lazy summer
And she told you, laughing down to her core, so she would not cry as she lay in your lap
She said "nobody here can live forever, quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer"
But you've already lost
When you only had barely enough to hang on
She said, "no one is alone the way you are alone"
And you held her looser than you would have if you ever could have known
Some things tie your life together, slender threads and things to treasure
Days like that should last and last and last"

but i know i'll wait for you here.