Happy Birthday

I deleted what I had recently wrote.
Due to the fact that I was getting way ahead of myself.



So edit;;

Today I celebrate the life of the soul who saved my life. I trully thank God for this day for without which I may not be here. Not only do I use this day to thank God for the person who saved my life I would also like to use it to appreciate all who have kept me going despite everything I am. So thank you. I am eternaly Greatful for you all.


And just to be clear, this relationship I have with a "stupid band" means more to me than any of you will ever understand. It was a life saver. It is my hero. I believe in them because understand it or not, they believe in me.


So,
Happy Birthday Peter.
Thanks for being there when everything fell apart.

Leave the light on

I want to live. I can't express that enough. and I'm sorry to everyone. I'm never really all there. my head is always heading somewhere else. "i ain't that sad, but I'm sad enough," and I'm sorry. Mostly I just want to give my whole heart to someone. but good luck star gazing on a cloudy night. maybe i'm just scared to lose the only connection i have with you. or maybe i'm just scared of losing my mind when your gone. couldn't wake up today. exhausted from all of this. so tired it hurts to try. but i still think of you. think of forgetting you though i never realy could. i'm waiting for you to come around. don't write me off just yet, i'm still on board.



waiting for your call.