heavy

spending time back against the bathroom wall. today sorrows don't reap chaos in floods down my cheek, but rather it swells and breathes in the way that i miss you. you made moments easier before i knew you. i wanted your secrets before i was even able to recognize your face. after seeing the light, i still don't feel real. mostly i attribute my wandering to you. everything that i want to be, and nothing that i am lies in you. saving the sweetest eyes i've ever seen behind a glass wall. i'll never reach you, but god knows i'd keep you if you'd let me. the hourglass emptied, and you stood there as the road stretched between us. you're just fine, i'm ruined.

if things were different

i'd never accept your answer.