afraid to be away from the sky to long. it rains new with the changes of the day. see changes in myself, reflected in you (sometimes). said it was too much to ask for in the beginning - a need to be near someone is the only common way to explain. easy thoughts for simpler minds. big picture? hate to waste my time. malicious. angry. loving. waiting. search what i've saved over the years on the subject to find a missing mark. incomplete.
how to be clear escapes me completely.
i should be the calm, walking home feeling you miss. shouldn't want to take a step too far away without me. a word doesn't need to be spoken, but everything should have been said. casual and easy should mean the world as long as its not alone. understand yet? i'm not a fan of the basic or the expected.
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gut you and lay your thoughts out to see how delicately they intertwine. with you i've never been worse off. i think i'll almost be glad when you're gone. it feels too good without you.
sadly enough, we're still held under your thumb.
want to be someone's better day. an excitement far better than the normal travels down a crowded hall. want to open the horizon wider. watch where your eyes go and know they'll make it back to me. a madness shared by two. afraid i'm far too better off on my own. feeling more alone than i ever have before. know what makes my heart slow, not exactly sure where to find it. sure few would know how to break this silence. don't want to be social with anything but your shadows on the walls. stay in all day and wait for you. wish i had the power in me to break you, to know what makes everyone tick. drop a time bomb to steal a heart. don't want anything except to be all that you crave. be enough to make you never stop thinking of me. to never need another soul or another breath that feels different than mine. want to make you belong to me. not fair knowing you can't live for anyone. your head is too full with words you can't explain. unlock the shallow thoughts from behind my eyes. - no one's meant to save.