Jumping at the chance to free it all

pushing it back. is it possible for a soul to die with the prospect of new life? feel like jumping from a rooftop. want to sign my name on the dotted line. want to give in, give it all to you. think the reason i had a seperate place for this was all for my protection. now it courses through the veins, lighting a fire in them. bitter shame, you're sweet. can feel in my heart, rather than my soul. shut it down. pick it up in the moon light, watch your eyes shine. still i miss the sun. words pour from soft pads, the prodding of an infectious feeling races through the night. flashing lights across my eyes. affected so by the songs ive been longing to hear. its dizzying- maddening even. say it, its been too long. willing to give it all, promise to hold on. no strings attached, but welcome. God knows losing now would lose a life. obsession is the easiest love. tortured by it. by the looks of it you seem fine. can't stand to be away. fall so hard, so fast. expressing you through billboards and skylines. images of perfection in a lost and lonely veiw. don't want this stream of inspiration to end. frightening how i feel it draining. each punch of the key exhausts a lasting moment in my head. it brings me closer to sleep, but i never want to rest again. the wild fire burns reckless, it flickers in places hiden away from you. you send the control center into a frenzy. it goes haywire with a single look.




feeling new- know i'll never be the same somehow.
this spirit is wild.

Beacons
Tha Gang
Late Nights
Denny's
StakeNShake
Theatre
Lazer Tag
Clown Cars
Sweater Vests
Hey There (place name here)
Hand Holding
Friendship
Profile Pictures
Kiss Virginity
Cheese Sticks
Salad
Hashbrowns
irresistable boys
Respect
Long Embraces between besties
Shelby
The Chase
New Friends
Old Friends
Forever Friends
Face Double
Pop Chat
"LMFAO"
Hair
Curtains
Stage Lights
Joseph <333
The After Life
Giggle Box
Movies
Cars
Avenue Q
Crackins From the Sea
Vogue Poses
Quiet Nights
Electric Currents



thankful for the greatest memories,
the greatest loves,
and the greatest friends i've ever known.

sitting on a rainbow

so much has changed. thought about you in a different light. love how i can joke with you and know its okay. if you we're wondering- you really do look good in blue. you're always going to mean more than my own life. and somehow i still live for that.


on another note- the waiting is intolerable. hate when it gets dark and im around you. the electricity is unbearable. at the same time i'd rather forget you're there. giving up at this point sounds so appealing. so many emotions thrown from so many different directions. its too hard to keep track. mostly i'm asking you to "Fly me to the moon. Let me play among the stars. Let me see what spring is like On a-Jupiter and Mars. In other words, hold my hand. In other words, baby, kiss me" not one for stupid games. my poker face is nonexistant. you're irresistible.


baby, its could outside.
come in

flaw is the truth

there is no point to doing this anymore.
so much to say,
and no words to say it.
i hate you for this.


story of my life.