Don't complicate it by hesitating

afraid to be away from the sky to long. it rains new with the changes of the day. see changes in myself, reflected in you (sometimes). said it was too much to ask for in the beginning - a need to be near someone is the only common way to explain. easy thoughts for simpler minds. big picture? hate to waste my time. malicious. angry. loving. waiting. search what i've saved over the years on the subject to find a missing mark. incomplete. 

how to be clear escapes me completely.

i should be the calm, walking home feeling you miss. shouldn't want to take a step too far away without me. a word doesn't need to be spoken, but everything should have been said. casual and easy should mean the world as long as its not alone. understand yet? i'm not a fan of the basic or the expected.

edit;

gut you and lay your thoughts out to see how delicately they intertwine. with you i've never been worse off. i think i'll almost be glad when you're gone. it feels too good without you.

sadly enough, we're still held under your thumb.